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 "it’s dark because you are trying too hard. lightly child, lightly. learn to do everything lightly. yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. so throw away your baggage and go forward. there are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. that’s why you must walk so lightly. lightly my darling, on tiptoes and no luggage, not even a sponge bag, completely unencumbered." -aldous huxley-

i have a hard time being lightly.. i usually end up feeling everything so intensely that i'm spun into a fit of anxiety or i just shut down entirely so i can recover without depleting myself completely. and if i'm not feeling intensely i'm probably overthinking everything intensely. oh how i want to be light. i want to breathe lightly and to see lightly and to think lightly and to feel lightly. especially when life does not always seem like it is treating me lightly. i am practicing this new way of being. to uncurl and to be open and upright, to know that the weight of things can be let go and that it is possible to walk forward lightly.. lightly my darling..