persona la ave, aka the lovely rachel levy and mister dylan dawkins, tore it up at silverlake’s tribal cafe on monday.  (click the pic for pics)

sometimes i forget why i ever feel like life is anything but beautiful.  i went to a show tonight and remembered that there was a heart inside my chest.  it was a pretty shitty day today, but it doesn’t matter anymore, because everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.  not right now.  i love going to shows for this reason.  and tonight’s slayed my soul.  it’s like i stepped into this secret moment between the musician and his instrument; a moment that i wasn’t supposed to walk in on.  but there i was, sharing it.  and it’s all so gorgeous that my heart could burst.  these people are doing exactly what they were made to do.  and everything seems to be just as it should be, if even for a moment, nothing is wrong.  i want to do that for people.  i want to remind them that there can exist such a thing; such a piece of life where our hearts are free and alive and full of life.  this is what we were made for after all, is it not?  LIFE.  real life.

i want to do all those things that make me forget that time exists.  i want to lose myself so wholly in something that i completely forget where i am or that i even exist; something so perfect and pure that the world bends in it’s presence.

i’m running out of words as i begin to linger on the edge of the unknown.  there is too much about this part of life that i still long to sit in.  and i wish i could sit in it forever, and soak up every particle until it shatters me from head to toe.  nothing else matters.  if we aren’t doing what we love, if we aren’t doing it for the pure, compelling, slaying love of doing it and pouring all the Life possible out on all of those sharing in it with us, then what’s the point?  rip me to shreds and throw me overboard; give me moments where nothing else exists.. save love; save life; save all that is beautiful.

… if that even makes sense.. it’s all just lovely.  so so lovely.

“if music be the food of love.. play on” -shakespeare

(photo by parker)