holding dear that youthful cheer
yesterday i decided to run away for a little bit. so, i drove up the coast until i wanted to stop, and this is where i found myself- paradise cove. i needed some reminding that life is just straight up beautiful and amazing and not quite as heavy as i sometimes make it. i’ve just got to keep getting up and living is all. really, truly living..
“tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” -mary oliver-
coming soon..
music. this is what happens when i feel things. and everything pulsing through my body seems to reach out and grab each pounding drum, every voice, every stringing sound and with it’s fingers it dances it in between and over and around my limbs. swirling through my hair. sloshing inside the front of my head, leaking in between the cracks of my skull and my brain. and for those few minutes from when a song first starts, to when it ends, i feel free. free to just exist. to just be fucked up and have no idea what i’m supposed to be doing with my life but to believe that it doesn’t matter anyway. free to just let myself believe that i’ll be loved someday. free to be a little lighter for once. that’s how i just block it all out.. how everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.
nothing hurts.
Black Coffee & Stephee Pie - We Go Together
Today is the day that the dreamy collaborative EP ‘Spin’ from Black Coffee & Cherry Pie and Steffaloo is available for you to add your headphones. I’ve had this EP on the iPhone for awhile now, and I can definitely vouch for its skull pleasing vibes. It also sounds really great in a rental car with the windows down strolling through the mountains. In fact, I would wager that it sounds really good in other situations too.
Swing by HI54LOFI RECORDS to listen / download / learn more now (it’s free too, if you needed more sugar in your tea).
since i’ve recently come into some free time, my roommate and i have become rather fond of going to the beach. as such, i decided to capture some of our childlike playing during one of our glorious beach days. when you’ve got no job, sunshine, a dear friend, the ocean, laughter, and two legs to run on, the bear necessities of life are pretty clear.. pure happiness.
i was walking on the beach by myself the other day and for the first time since i can remember i felt really and truly free. the kind of free that makes you laugh at nothing, but you just can’t help it because there’s so much happiness bursting inside of you that all there is to do is to just laugh. the kind of free that makes you feel like you just might be able to do whatever it is you weren’t sure you could do. it sounds ridiculous, but it was just like those moments in the movies, when the protagonist spreads their arms wide to the world and exclaims victory over whatever it was they were fighting against.. it was my moment. arms wide. just.. free.
something great is about to happen.
brother boy
i think i just blacked out for a second. i stopped existing. at least here at this desk. i’m so unmotivated. all i can think of is open fields and bubbling clouds. oozing music. something like dancing and running and flying. i’ve got to get out of here. i’m restless. there are things on my mind. lots of things. just sinking their toes into the cracks and crevasses of my ever wandering brain surface. my eyes are violent with all this beauty around me. violent in the most fantastic kind of way. but then my skin rips off and i’m feeling all this.. all this ‘this’ in the most raw way possible. if i could just stop and let my heart have a moment to forget for a little. or remember. to let it just run a while. yes.. just run. run run run..
(picture taken by pq)