i don’t feel much tonight, and yet i think it’s because i feel too much. life has been so good lately that the hole i want filled most seems bigger than usual. i want to share all of these things.. i think i could just burst. but i think learning how to be ok right now is good. this process is good. i need to learn how to just live..to not have to depend on the things i have depended on for so long in order to feel ok about life. this is it. i’m alive. the holes will fill themselves when they need to. and i can already feel myself becoming more whole as they do.