last night i had a dream that ryan gosling came to one of our chrome sparks shows and we fell in love. it was one of those dreams though where some sort of strange dream magic happened and it ended up feeling so real that when i woke up all i could do was feel that unnamable emotion i just experienced all night and attach it to that person that wasn’t even real. now i can’t look at a picture of ryan gosling and not feel it. why does that happen? tonight i watched five episodes of gossip girl back to back and ate thai chicken that i ordered from the place down the street. i had a job interview this morning and for some reason i feel like i didn’t get it. and tomorrow is thanksgiving. tomorrow is thanksgiving and for the first time i think in my whole entire life i won’t be with any of my immediate family. i don’t know why i’m writing any of this, except that i’ve been trying for days to just write anything.. to say everything without saying that much.